Disjoint? That would probably describe my day.
1. Midnight saw me drinking coffee, aimlessly surfing the internet and making small attempts at studying. What is it that repulses me from these textbooks that are my hope to pass exams??!!
2. I had planned to leave to Chennai and surprise my parents at 3AM and had arranged with Vinu to stop me at the unearthly hour. At 4 AM I was still awake in my room and somehow felt too lazy to make the trip.
3. I went to sleep at 5 AM – what??!! Is my biological clock out of sync??!!
4. I MISSED CHURCH. Why? I woke up at 8 AM and then re-slept all the way to 11AM. That meant no church, no hometrip and no breakfast. Ugh…. I need to retune my biological clock.
5. Fried rice and Chicken with a load of chips filled my stomach at 2 PM – lunch!!!
6. I got around to reading all the mail sent through my website in the last 2 months. I finally updated the scrawlwall – http://www.addicted2jesus.com/a2jscrawlwall.html ; it’s now got some cool new statements in some weird fonts!
7. Searched for a new mobile on…. ebay (ouch!). All the good deals were not ending soon and I’ll have to recheck in a couple of days. Maybe I’ll just walk down the street and buy a new one. But oh… the joy of bidding online and getting something cheaper – maybe I’ll get addicted to it!
8. Arpudh dropped in after tea and we had a loooong chat about Christian music and he borrowed a few CDs from me. Hope he likes ’em. I also noticed that his mobile was more scratched and less functional than mine (except for the battery which lasted a longer time). Am I getting desperate for a new mobile?
9. At 8 PM – Dinner. Just dinner. Food, water, period.
10. Coffee at 10.30. Coincidentally, bumped into Cynthia. Unfortunately felt too randomised to really enjoy a good conversation.
11. BEHIND ENEMY LINES: Probably the most exciting part of the day. I actually watched the whole movie! It was thrilling, action-packed and interrupted by long ad-breaks (Gotta complain to AXN), but I loved the movie. It’s been a long time since I sat through a whole movie…. awesome movie!
12. back in my room, back to randomness and then dozed off at 2 AM

Is there a method to this madness? A plan in this randomness? Or am I just muddling it up all by myself? The basic problem is that I dont seem to be able to study and that leaves me with a lot of time during these study leave that seems to fill my mind with random thoughts and ideas. I’ve been praying a lot and actually having longer quiet times. But something leaves me empty…..
God….. fill me more – I hate that emptiness in me!